Confessions, Virtual Spanks & Tangible Insights
From the depths of lunacy to a cinema near you....
Firstly,
I do apologize for my lack of being a blogger-addict; I just haven’t
had the time between projects, study and life in general plus having to set up a new blog in regards to my writing on a more 'fantasy' and erotica level. Plus my article publications. There simply
isn’t enough minutes in the day, that or I seriously need life
management. These past few months had just been strange, from one
extreme to another, study has been crazy not to mention the writing
projects I already have and more placed on the silver platter for me to
consider. Time seems to be flying, sometimes upwards, sometimes
sidewards in rather chaotic sporadic patterns but rarely ever downwards.
Returning to study has been a beautiful learning experience, and
between the learning process, writing and my family (including the
gorgeous network of friends I possess). I have felt indeed blessed
especially after a few virtual slaps along the way which were certainly
needed for I am extremely close to having a dream come true. The only
thing which maybe prevents the full fruition is myself, to take the
initiative and just “DO IT!” so many of us procrastinate for whatever
reason, be it fear of rejection, frailty, lack of resources or support,
self-esteem, motivation. The ‘fuels of failure’... so I have come to
entitle them along with my wrongs and my indiscretions'.
A
true friend, will always inform you of your sillies, but also praise
you for your glories; they speak to you openly, and should always be
able to do so regardless of whether it may upset you. They will tell you
where you are going wrong in life, whether you believe you are or not;
they offer an insight that at times we fail to see because we are
crashing blindly into a travesty or a brick wall. I am one of the
luckily ones who have a wonderful network of friends who can and will
kick me up the rear on such occasions... all good I say, bring it on!
Happily so, I have an amazing group of assorted folks who are there for
me, during the up’s, down’s and chaotic in-betweens which manifest
randomly; and likewise. It has taken many years to find these beautiful
people, sorting through the proverbial trash of gossip-mongers, fakes,
malignant people who lie to manipulate others into believing their lies,
and basically scum of the earth trying to guise themselves as diamonds.
It happens, such is life! But I thank my new lease on life, removing
damaging people from my life, now I would like for them to leave
peacefully back to the snake-pit from where hence they slithered. And you know who you are.
What
truly matters, is who I know I can count on for these beautifully kicks
in the rear, but also advice given with genuine sincerity, compassion,
love, honour and experience or simply an ear to listen- to my friends...
I owe you all thankfulness, and the words “Thank You” will never be
quite enough for all that you have given, shared and expressed. Each of
you have a piece of my heart, and even though I personally find these
words are not enough, but I love you all so much, that it even
transcends above the dialogue and usual understandings. You all
instinctively know when there is something amiss, you all offer words
that I need to hear, and hope you always know your advice is welcome and
never falls on deaf ears rendering that I plummet headfirst into an
abyss of pandemonium. I shall always come to you should I require/or in
need of a swift spanking. A total meltdown is no option. So heaps up for
the past and in advance (with love and gratitude) thanks for the
virtual spankings and occasion kick up the jacksy!
As
mentioned above, my dream, well... has come true, brought into manifestation by my own focus and ambition, every fibre of
my being wants this to blossom into reality. Being published in books and magazines, has been a rewarding experience. And, with my awesome band
of ‘butt-kickers’ I know, whether it is from hugs or the placement of
shiny boots to my rear... that I will always have support, and I hope in
return they also know I am here for them whenever they need it. Many
lack the actual dedication it takes to have friends. To have friends,
you have to be a friend; that requires much restraint and composure. To
never bitch about them behind their backs, or reveal things told in
confidence or point the finger to save your own skin, to not place them
in harm’s way while turning your back like a 'Fingered Judas', to not
lie and place yourself into a false light while casting another to
darkness. And many other despicable behaviours that have been revealed
to me in the past, and even quite recently. Dragging me into drama’s
that really had nothing to do with me, save for a lie from someone I
‘regarded’ as a friend who dragged me into the tar of their filth and
vileness, and the counterparts trying to keep me influenced to it.
And another group of idiots who evidently have no lives they have to create fiction about another. Immature people will always seek to harm you and attempt to play the
shrew while appearing as nothing but hard-asses pissing in your
brewsky. I now remove such from my life, and keep them there in a box of
forgotten memory- they do not exist to me, a bit like black jellybeans.
Remember, sometimes you do have to smell the roses, and wipe the dog shit from your shoe and the egg off your face- seize the day. If life hands you lemons, squirt it in the fucking eye. Ceate your life to how you wish
it to be, not permit outside forces that come in on the cold wintry
breeze, spread chaos then ebb on the caress of the suns fading. All
nightmares end with the golden rays of morning, blessings can come in
the smallest globule of crystal-reflected dew and faeries can dance on
the head of a pin. Broaden your horizons, bid leavings a fond fair well
and always know that no matter how near or how far the stars shall
forever shine. Sometimes you just have to imagine you are one of those
stars in order to truly shine in a world surrounded by darkness. Know
yourself, be true to yourself, love and respect yourself and everything
else will fall perfectly into place. There is no hurry for the road is
clear ahead, and you still have many more miles in which to travel, pace
it don’t go full-steam ahead only to fall short of the finishing line.
Patience is the reward of every endurance.
Therefore...
From
the depths of lunacy to a cinema near you, I shall leave you with these
words and hope they carry well amongst your journeys.
Black Roses, Bleeding Hearts & Zombie Parts <3.